16-06-2019 13:19 - edited 16-06-2019 13:21
16-06-2019 13:19 - edited 16-06-2019 13:21
Thinking about my dear dad Roy, bless him
Allus a Daddy's Girl
A mechanical engineer all his working life with a firm in Leeds until he judged it time to go for early retirement
That song ... = ... To Dance With My Father Again ... is what is in my head
Jiving with dad ... & ... once doing a pasa doble to win a prize ... dad hadn't had a lesson in his life for the paso ... he threw me around the ballroom with me doing deep lunges ... mum said afterwards the audience were cheering us on ... & ... it wasn't at our dancing school ... just a regular Saturday night out dancing with our family's friends
Just had an upsetting phone call from my mum ... it's no bother she won't know it's Fathers Day ... she won't talk about dad at all, not even the happy times out in the car or on holidays or at dancing competitions ... mum made my & my sister's dance dresses
Mum has called me bad = I'm not ... she just forgets / doesn't listen to what me & my sister have to say ... I must have told her 5 times now I won't be coming Wednesday's & weekends anymore = my days are Monday & Thursday as they have been this week ... at weekends there are 3 carer sessions mum doesn't need either my sister nor me ... she moaned for me to speak up = I said no I'm not shouting anymore as it gives me headaches ... so ... my voice is as soft as hers ... not what I wished for on Fathers Day ... yes, mum's memory is going, she's very elderly and infirm ... but is ... wiry and has steely determination ... I softly put the phone down after saying bye bye ... usually it's mum who crashes the handset down on the cradle
OK ... time to get some of the old family photos out of the cupboards ... & ... off the shelves to smile & be happy over
HAPPY FATHERS DAY to everyone
on 16-06-2019 20:56
16-06-2019 21:02 - edited 16-06-2019 21:12
16-06-2019 21:02 - edited 16-06-2019 21:12
@anticpated wrote:
... sometimes you need to lose something before you appreciate it.
Ain't that the truth!